Mommy Moments

Addie is rather mobile, alert, interactive, and curious.  She is almost 7 months and the world is her oyster!  Last week in Mom's group she followed her friend around.  He is 13 months and was more into doing his own thing but that did not bother her.  Once she caught him she scooted up behind him, grabbed his shirt and proceeded to lick his back.  He tastes good apparently.


This week she decided licking, while fun, is not the only physical thing she can do to another.  So she crawled up to him, sits up in front of him and reaches out.  As she reaches out my mind goes "oh no"  I know how she grabs at my face and it can frickin hurt.  By the time I process and start to react by grabbing her hand she has already secured his cheek in her fist and pulled.  All with a smile on her face.  


Tears came next as pain registered for the little guy and as the time went on the red marks began to show on his cheek.  Five little red marks.  


Was I embarrassed?  You bet.  Apologetic?  Of course.  I sat there realizing that this was embarrassing moment of motherhood #1 of 1,000,000.


Amazingly Addie and I have been invited to go play with the little guy today.   Brave, brave mom.


I will try and keep her claws retracted today.

Just as scary as labor. . .

Vaginal Pimples.  Such a nice phrase.  I almost want to type it out all pretty like and frame it for in the guest bathroom.  


At least with labor you can get drugs to stop the pain, but no good drugs for one of those suckers.  The only thing that works for them is time and a hot bath. Maybe some Ibuprofen. I think I have gotten 4-5 of these and they are not to be messed with!  Also, pretty much leave me a lone when I have one.  I guess it is a price one pays when they tend to "try" and be well groomed in the nether regions.


Now this wouldn't be so bad if I could just get the hot soaking bath it so desperately needs.  Only problem is our master bathroom does not have a bath (stupid builder) and the guest bath is connected to Addie's room in such a way that it would wake her up (again, stupid builder!).  So the only time I can take a bath is when Addie is napping, only I can't take a bath when she is napping because it would wake her.  So I have suffered the last 3 days without a bath.  Hot showers are nice but they don't work.  What does this all lead to?  


Builder FAIL!!


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Owww.

Mommy Has A Camera - Run!

I have had this computer for over two years now and I am still finding things on it that surprise me. It is a macbook and I have been using iPhoto since the beginning but it wasn't until a couple months ago that I began to play with iMovie. I have been having lots of fun with that though I don't fully comphrehend the program and what I can do with it just yet. My latest find is iDVD. I was looking for a way in iMovie to make a DVD for hubby that had lots of video of Addie and maybe me that he could watch while I am out of town for a week. First off, I shoot the videos with my 2.5 year old digital camera so the quality isn't that great. However, I am just blown away that I can actually make a DVD with an intro screen, snap shots of video playing and submenus with chapters. I mean it is crazy. . and such a cool gift idea! I know what I will be making as a small gift for several family members for Christmas! Now all I need is to get myself this baby:  Flip MinoHD Camcorder 2nd Generation, 2 Hours (Brushed Metal).  I think with that I could take some awesome video.  Time to save up my money.

I think hubby is going to be very touched when he comes home to find the DVD waiting for him after I leave for my parents. I am looking forward to hearing his surprise.

Eating Like A Rabbit

Having Addie has changed my life completely in so many ways. I made the decision to breast-feed and have been so happy about this choice even with the dietary restrictions it has brought about. I would never have gone top 8 allergen free (plus gluten and corn) without her and I credit my weight-loss and overall healthy feeling to this. She has changed my life in such a positive way.

I told hubby last night that Since having her I have two new passions in life that I didn't know I would have, her and the food I eat. This leads to two completely different life paths I could take in regards to work, early childhood development or Nutritionist. I think nutritionist is something I would have a great deal more fun learning about in school. Sadly there isn't a school that offers that near me.

Yesterday we went shopping at the market and I was all excited about my new cookbook: The Whole Life Nutrition Cookbook and many of the recipes I wanted to try. Hubby is not quite the same with me when it comes to eating this way. I mean don't get me wrong he would like to eat healthy, but only on the cheap. So in the natural foods sections he started getting pissy as he looked at all the prices. I had him grab me some Kale and Collard greens and he started making comments about not wanting "to eat this shit". Yeah, that is what I get to live with. I love him so much but sometimes, I want to kick him in the balls. He loves salads and everything but because of the prices in that other section he was so pissy that he basically threw a fit stating he didn't want to eat this way.

Needless to say when we checked out the price was $30 cheaper than he thought it would be and he ate that "shit" for dinner and thought it was pretty good. With time I might make him a convert, but in the immediate future I will not be bringing him grocery shopping with me again.

"I'm A Father"

The first 3 months of new motherhood were insanely rough. Not getting sleep, not being able to get away and especially not feeling like I had a partner to help me through all of the newness. My husband froze after Addie was born. That first night freaked him out. I believe he even questioned if he should have had a kid. Then he shut down. I mean he helped change her diapers when asked and would do things if I needed but that was really it. He was not eager to hold her, talk with her or just really interact. It crushed me and caused a lot of problems for us. I mean it really sucked to be the only one holding her while she cried.

Things started getting better around 3 months but still they weren't wonderful. Then 5 months hit and things really started to change. Now at 6.5 months it is like night and day. This morning I listened on the monitor as he entered her room while she was still sleeping and did something that roused her for a second. I later found out he had rubbed her back and then kissed her cheek before heading out to work. Last night he made the random comment that he wants to take her with him when he goes places (work related and other). He has always loved her but each day that love is growing and he is showing it more and more. My heart is melting and a huge part of me is screaming for joy over the fact that it has changed. Once she became more lively and mobile and her personality has started to come out he completely melted.

It has been a long hard road to this point and I am so glad to finally have reached it. Whether or not we will have another child is up in the air. I am not sure I can wait 5 months to reach this point again with another child. To hear him say "I'm a father now, isn't that weird" is so nice though. I love them both to bits and can't wait to watch as their relationship continues to grow.

Auto Karma

Today while on my way to Target for some much needed retail therapy I watched as an older woman merged out into traffic and slowed to try and get into the far left lane. There was not a steady stream of cars coming when she moved out and though I did think it odd how slow she was moving I didn't think it warranted the horn blast she got for the lady coming up behind her. It then became clear that the reason she was moving so slow is that she wanted in the left lane so she could get into the left turn lane and she would not have the opportunity to do so again. I understood the dilemma, I have even had the same issue time and time again. If you don't get into the lane now, you won't have another chance and will have to drive past your turn and have to navigate back. Once she successfully got into the left lane (this just took a matter of seconds) the lady behind her quickly drove past and flipped her the finger.

Really!?!? Was that so called for? All I have to say is that older lady did not deserve that and hope that the other lady gets some karma back for that move.

6 Months. . .Wow. Actually over 6 months, almost 6.5 months to be exact. Every day she takes my breath away a little more, my little Addie. Addie Patty Pie to those in the know. She is such a happy child (except at 11pm 3am and 5am or somewhere there abouts) laughing, giggling and smiling so big at the world around her. I can't imagine life with out her.

It is tough for me to leave sometimes to go do things by myself. Not because I don't want some "me" time. I do, oh deary I do. I just have anxiety that something might happen to me or her and one of us will left without the other. It is horrible to think this I know but I can't help to worry. She lights up my life and I want her to know that. I want her to know how much I love her. I want to watch her grow up. I want to watch her learn and laugh. 6 months seems like so long especially as I waited to get out of the newborn stage (so not into the up every 2 hours thing) but it also is just not enough. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life watching her. All I want is to see her happy, for the rest of her life. A very tall order but one I will try so very hard to make happen.